It been a long while I had not been too emo.
But this sense had some how hind its way to me.
We had Internet now a days, we had digi now a days, Lot kind of plans.
But still hardly get to communicate.
Being ignored, left alone are always the things I hated.
Will always keep me in your mind like I do?
I hope you will and I pray you will.
I hope this hurting will go.
I don't wish to start making Emo rhythm and poems once again like before.
Showing posts with label Heart ache. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Heart ache. Show all posts
Sorrows
Im sad
Im lonely
Im ignored
If some one would try to understand
If some one tried to care
You want cared
You want understanding
You want me give everything best for you
You want me keep my words
You want me not to ignore you
You want me fill the space of hole in your heart
How bout me?
who would do all those to me?
I don't feeled cared,
neither is understanding or tolerance
I don't get anything, keeping words? *you gonna say:Don't be an idiot
This space was left open ever since a long time
Im lonely
Im ignored
If some one would try to understand
If some one tried to care
You want cared
You want understanding
You want me give everything best for you
You want me keep my words
You want me not to ignore you
You want me fill the space of hole in your heart
How bout me?
who would do all those to me?
I don't feeled cared,
neither is understanding or tolerance
I don't get anything, keeping words? *you gonna say:Don't be an idiot
This space was left open ever since a long time
Something fading
I been wondering did something fading within me...
For all the time passed, just mere few hours of loneliness.
I found out, i start to give up.
I give up because I kept told my self no point waiting.
I wanna confess once again but my fear dragging me.
Really hurt when I typing this. I wish anything would come and encourage me.
Is far beyond my reach. I'm tired catching it. My engine start choking. The urge the need the strength that keep me going on everything is slipped out slowly.
This is week 3 already, none of my list find me. none came and say hello. None came. No nudge,no msg. Nothing.
For all the time passed, just mere few hours of loneliness.
I found out, i start to give up.
I give up because I kept told my self no point waiting.
I wanna confess once again but my fear dragging me.
Really hurt when I typing this. I wish anything would come and encourage me.
Is far beyond my reach. I'm tired catching it. My engine start choking. The urge the need the strength that keep me going on everything is slipped out slowly.
This is week 3 already, none of my list find me. none came and say hello. None came. No nudge,no msg. Nothing.
Expired Luck
Well, You might had came through some expired food, drink ,voucher, ticket and etc.
Won;t you felt that is a real bummer when you want something and you can use it or consume just because the expiry date had passed. May be for some of the ppl they just eat it despite about the best time of consuming.
Well I had this stupid experience, a very dumb one.
When im eating my fav junk food, and i found something inside. A paper with a code.
Then when i turn over and i see the prize i luckily got, well all i need to do is key in the code and get my self a registry so i can claim my 2nd prize!!!
So when i key in and what i got is......
There are not blank for this promotion already!? then i check the due period of the promotion. And a BIG PICKLES when t already expired for a week plus ...
darn sad!!! Here i see my dream crush..... U know like a round aquarium squashed on the floor.
Won;t you felt that is a real bummer when you want something and you can use it or consume just because the expiry date had passed. May be for some of the ppl they just eat it despite about the best time of consuming.
Well I had this stupid experience, a very dumb one.
When im eating my fav junk food, and i found something inside. A paper with a code.
Then when i turn over and i see the prize i luckily got, well all i need to do is key in the code and get my self a registry so i can claim my 2nd prize!!!
So when i key in and what i got is......
There are not blank for this promotion already!? then i check the due period of the promotion. And a BIG PICKLES when t already expired for a week plus ...
darn sad!!! Here i see my dream crush..... U know like a round aquarium squashed on the floor.
If some one would really think of me
When looking into the title,
Some might had this passed through you mind that u did think of me.
But will it be a time that u need help or u need an existence to deal with your worry.
Will you think of me when your bored? may be?
Will you think of me when you sad? Of course, but some time?
Will you think of me when your happy? Definitely not.
Some might had this passed through you mind that u did think of me.
But will it be a time that u need help or u need an existence to deal with your worry.
Will you think of me when your bored? may be?
Will you think of me when you sad? Of course, but some time?
Will you think of me when your happy? Definitely not.
It been a long while i felt myself like a tool than a living creature.
May be worse than a tool.
No one would stretch their hand until my calling.
May be worse than a tool.
No one would stretch their hand until my calling.
I do felt like i never even was existed for most of the time.
Im more like a dust when you hate it,
road sand that is not needed,
But a necessary when come in time of need.
Im more like a dust when you hate it,
road sand that is not needed,
But a necessary when come in time of need.
Am I all the time a tool? Sand? Or just nothing at all?
A whole new year,
new weather behavior,
so do the new situation Im in.
I never really felt much happy,
I seek for care and concern,
Just lil love would be enough.
But not in anyone, neither here in my home.
A whole new year,
new weather behavior,
so do the new situation Im in.
I never really felt much happy,
I seek for care and concern,
Just lil love would be enough.
But not in anyone, neither here in my home.
Crushed,
If some one would missed me.
Would it happen?
Never in my life time.
Would it happen?
Never in my life time.
Sadden Niu year
(T_T) ~
(T_T) ~
Help~ Gain a fren or Lose
I helped quite some fren back then.
may be They are consider fren to me . But may be im not to them.
There is one case,
P was some one i knew just for while and P had problem to deal. I din knew why I din slept keep worrying P. So i helped P, advised P how to deal with P's Bf.
I was addressed P's Best friend at the particular time.
I din know whether is just by feeling or by heart P called me that..
But Not long after P had stable. P had started to ignore me. Stop reply me.
P reply every one except me. I thought i done something wrong, but sooner i found it had nth relate to that. And there i had losed 1 so called Im best friend.
This is just one of more cases i met...
I been too kind to help....
But i gain no fren?!
But those that I'm not there with them..
They were always wit me...
Im confused
may be They are consider fren to me . But may be im not to them.
There is one case,
P was some one i knew just for while and P had problem to deal. I din knew why I din slept keep worrying P. So i helped P, advised P how to deal with P's Bf.
I was addressed P's Best friend at the particular time.
I din know whether is just by feeling or by heart P called me that..
But Not long after P had stable. P had started to ignore me. Stop reply me.
P reply every one except me. I thought i done something wrong, but sooner i found it had nth relate to that. And there i had losed 1 so called Im best friend.
This is just one of more cases i met...
I been too kind to help....
But i gain no fren?!
But those that I'm not there with them..
They were always wit me...
Im confused
Eileen Chua Hui Ting
Born in 1995
Date of death:2009 January 4th
Nationality:Taiwanese
Date of death:2009 January 4th
Nationality:Taiwanese
Eileen had been a great sister to me ever since she was taken to be my God sister. She was a very cheerful person before she knew that she got leukemia. She was gifted a generous heart and she was there to be the first kind girl to help others.
She had not complain much even she got treated badly by her cousin sister. Even so she still help her ,knowing why she willing to share to bare the punishment that her cousin sister get. But one thing i know is the genuine heart she had to change her cousin.
When i was down last time, sadden by angel. She was there to be with me, she had neutralise me with her positive thought. If to ask everyone that knew her, they like her in many ways.
But a person like she, i really don't like it when i heard her death news. Might be God wanted you to Back to the origin, leaving your suffering body and live peacefully up there.
She had not complain much even she got treated badly by her cousin sister. Even so she still help her ,knowing why she willing to share to bare the punishment that her cousin sister get. But one thing i know is the genuine heart she had to change her cousin.
When i was down last time, sadden by angel. She was there to be with me, she had neutralise me with her positive thought. If to ask everyone that knew her, they like her in many ways.
But a person like she, i really don't like it when i heard her death news. Might be God wanted you to Back to the origin, leaving your suffering body and live peacefully up there.
You had taught me "To die, there are billions of ways. But to live is something else"
You had encourage a lot of people to survive including me.
You had taught us to forgive and continue to retreat them with kindness.
You had taught us to be in selfless thought.
You had encourage a lot of people to survive including me.
You had taught us to forgive and continue to retreat them with kindness.
You had taught us to be in selfless thought.
May the Lord show mercy on you, had peace my beloved sister.
Will she ever?
A doubt of mine,
Will she ever mind?
I wanna share,
Will she ever care?
Companion all i want,
but hope came with none.
I'm trapped in sorrow,
Still she left me hollow.
All i ever seek,
but she just kick.
When emo , drackie was allow to find her.
But drackie shouting yet nothing was heard.
Heart was teared,
Tears was holding not to shed.
But drackie shouting yet nothing was heard.
Heart was teared,
Tears was holding not to shed.
If anyone would understand
Approach or not? Help and care?
What more u demand that will ever satisfied you? Had not i cramp out topic?
Isn't always me to dig up ideas? Seek and you found, ask and you get.
Ppl just swept off their dust once they passed it and turn me away.
Am I acting too much of a Church or temple ? Where help and blessing are always available?
Not saying that i want respond on thing tribute but please bare in mind Im a guy facing issue as same as or might be heavier. Though I seem to be nerd' ing with my study not realizing troubles that had already knocked on my desk.
I offer my help to whom help themselves. I give to whom that asked.
I don't please anyone but i do favor. Still, I'm still a mortal that might die the next second you breath right now. If you don't want to understand it, please don't sweat on complaining.
My forehead is getting heavier, my body starting to giving up on me.
But none was matter . My heart that broken and blown . Sorrow that given.
What more u demand that will ever satisfied you? Had not i cramp out topic?
Isn't always me to dig up ideas? Seek and you found, ask and you get.
Ppl just swept off their dust once they passed it and turn me away.
Am I acting too much of a Church or temple ? Where help and blessing are always available?
Not saying that i want respond on thing tribute but please bare in mind Im a guy facing issue as same as or might be heavier. Though I seem to be nerd' ing with my study not realizing troubles that had already knocked on my desk.
I offer my help to whom help themselves. I give to whom that asked.
I don't please anyone but i do favor. Still, I'm still a mortal that might die the next second you breath right now. If you don't want to understand it, please don't sweat on complaining.
My forehead is getting heavier, my body starting to giving up on me.
But none was matter . My heart that broken and blown . Sorrow that given.
Drackie only hanging at this moment , is Angel.
Though angel might not really seen it or came to place with fire
but at least Drackie know where to seek Angel.
Though angel might found drackie look the same with appearance
but at least Drackie' s feeling had come to changed.
Though angel might not really seen it or came to place with fire
but at least Drackie know where to seek Angel.
Though angel might found drackie look the same with appearance
but at least Drackie' s feeling had come to changed.
Hurt
I got a slight thread chance to get to meet u
I dun know whether you wan to meet me oso
I wanna tell u i miss u a lot tho ur face had slight fade in my mind
I wanna tell u i care every single thing of u tho is had not seem to be related to me
I wanna tell u i worry things that happened to you
I'm watching from far
I'm accompany hiding from your sight
I wanna to be with u all the time
I dono whether had u ever wan me to do tat
Im jealous
Im envy
And IM IN LOVE,
heartache that cover me
I dun know whether you wan to meet me oso
I wanna tell u i miss u a lot tho ur face had slight fade in my mind
I wanna tell u i care every single thing of u tho is had not seem to be related to me
I wanna tell u i worry things that happened to you
I'm watching from far
I'm accompany hiding from your sight
I wanna to be with u all the time
I dono whether had u ever wan me to do tat
Im jealous
Im envy
And IM IN LOVE,
heartache that cover me
Im back
Back to the sorrow that been haunted me for year
Back to the one Im regret to be
Back to the stage that smile had been faded
Back to the way Im dont long to be
back to the shadow the Im no longer been seen
Raining,Storm high with thunders slashing;
Shivering, Heart and soul are crashing;
Hurting, Worse that i been tearsing;
Drowning, Pain that reallt killing.
Back to the one Im regret to be
Back to the stage that smile had been faded
Back to the way Im dont long to be
back to the shadow the Im no longer been seen
Raining,Storm high with thunders slashing;
Shivering, Heart and soul are crashing;
Hurting, Worse that i been tearsing;
Drowning, Pain that reallt killing.
100% T.T
Yeah! She was taken.
No doubt bout it by now!
Why cant i lay it down?
Why must i Hold on to her?
Aren't there girls out there?
Isn't I should concern on other and my studies?
Why am i struggling over this heart sore?
Why am i not accepting other ?
I need a solution. I need to Let go of it. I must forget it!
How? God, pls show me wat to do. I prayed hard of it. Im in trap.
Im torn, im well rebuild again. Why is the sorrow back to haunt me?
I barely could stand .
No doubt bout it by now!
Why cant i lay it down?
Why must i Hold on to her?
Aren't there girls out there?
Isn't I should concern on other and my studies?
Why am i struggling over this heart sore?
Why am i not accepting other ?
I need a solution. I need to Let go of it. I must forget it!
How? God, pls show me wat to do. I prayed hard of it. Im in trap.
Im torn, im well rebuild again. Why is the sorrow back to haunt me?
I barely could stand .
Hmmm.. still missing?
Yeah no doubt of it, it still cant fade away. I know it is impossible but wat can i do.
Cool down ~ i need to concentrate on my study. i Shun think of her . no way ! she got He in her. What am i worth a post in her? i dun think is any penny cost. Man i kept thinking till i lost every match in my badminton. darn.. i cant even play chess!Cool down man i need to cool down!
LAme joke of the day
Cool down ~ i need to concentrate on my study. i Shun think of her . no way ! she got He in her. What am i worth a post in her? i dun think is any penny cost. Man i kept thinking till i lost every match in my badminton. darn.. i cant even play chess!Cool down man i need to cool down!
LAme joke of the day
Simon was doing very badly in math. His parents had tried everything; tutors, flash cards, special learning centers. In short, everything they could think of. Finally in a last ditch effort, they took Simon down and enrolled him in the local
After the first day, little Simon came home with a very serious look on his face. He didn’t greet his mother with a kiss. Instead, he went straight to his room and started studying. Books and papers were spread out all over the room and little Simon was hard at work. His mother was amazed. She called him down for dinner and to her shock, the minute he was done he marched back to his room without a word and in no time he was back hitting the books as hard as before.
This went on for some time, day after day while the mother tries to understand what made all the difference. Finally, little Simon brought home his report card. He quietly laid it on the table and goes up to his room and hits the books. Again, with great trepidation, his mom looked at it and to her surprise, little Simon got an “A” in math.
She can no longer hold her curiosity. She went to his room and asked: "Son, what was it? Was it the nuns that make you study this hard?" Little Simon looks at her and shakes his head. "Well then." she replies, "was it the books, the discipline, the structure, the uniforms. WHAT was it ?"
Little Simon looked at her and said, "Well, on the first day of school, I saw this guy hanging on the cross and I knew they weren't fooling around."
Could?
If i could,
I would.
Even I knew,
It can never be renew.
With all my might,
But end up with cried.
If ever you could be here,
Face wont be wet by tears.
Result could never kill,
Heartache, disappointment will.
Love I'd declare,
But you never care.
Everything i Appreciate ,
But it's late.
I would.
Even I knew,
It can never be renew.
With all my might,
But end up with cried.
If ever you could be here,
Face wont be wet by tears.
Result could never kill,
Heartache, disappointment will.
Love I'd declare,
But you never care.
Everything i Appreciate ,
But it's late.
Sad April Fool
April Fool? Everyone would hide their fox smile for today.Everyone just enjoy what they going to plan or plan tat had set for them. But seem like i got the a Sad April Fool. That Sadness i have , I showed. Nobody cares. Sometime i could not feel my self anymore. Sweet? Spicy? where both of u gone? Why bitter are the one keep accompany me? why is Sour keep bugging me? Even i try to help friend get 10 ringgit reload. Thought of sending her money knowing she had no more credit. But before i could finish type her num, haiz.. Thing just crush~ and brew.
I will find my place,
beautiful Lies,
Desperate i will roar,
Long i had come,
Finding out a way,
In the mud,
where Heart was laid.
I will find my place,
beautiful Lies,
Desperate i will roar,
Long i had come,
Finding out a way,
In the mud,
where Heart was laid.
Heart ache? Internal chest pain? No~
Her blog, everything. Just drawn a deep injury in my chest,my heart. I wish it was only my illness but no.Its was the jealousy and envy ! Why am i so coward, Why she just don't listen to me . Why She had to treat me like this? Darn it. The pain really caused me this few sleepless night. Why won't she notice me? She good at Caring but what next was she real bad when she ignore! sigh with the breath i inhaled. Missing her,thinking of her i wish i could stop dreaming of her . Why is she carving this deep scar in me? Am I too naive? Or am i just a failure. I wish she could listen to me, carrying this with me.
She'd changed
When i chat with her
She had change totally from the way since we met
and she is another person
Well when some one a no body to somebody
No doubt they will change.
without realising themselve had become those ppl they hate last time
Become ppl tat dun care
dun appreciate.
My heart just broken
She had change totally from the way since we met
and she is another person
Well when some one a no body to somebody
No doubt they will change.
without realising themselve had become those ppl they hate last time
Become ppl tat dun care
dun appreciate.
My heart just broken
Sadness that never go away
Sad~ why, i need to get rid of it. I wish to but i failed, i get this 
on and this wat i get. I try to show my smile to u all but from my inner u know nothing of me.. My heart sank in the sea of my tears.I done so many work so tat i wont break my promises and my word.And all u can say is many ppl said so hence u will not believe me. oh hello... cant u see th
e difference? Yes i admit, i do have good feeling,did it make me untrustworthy? If it is so, tell me early.Don until i have make u my most rely fren and u just break me into pieces like u don know or don even care of me.! When u have something in u, i can feel it cuz i care of u! When i got something bad, i need to put a Skyhigh BAnner to get ur ATTENTION. The 
thing i hide from u doesnt mean i don wan share wit u, is i don wan put u in trouble worrying. I done so many thin gand u just don realised... hmmm all of this days, im just a nobody to u... Feeling unfair, u have ppl in need tat u care and can call u anytime anywhere, but me, even ur free, and u just don care how i feel.. To be fair.. i know is my fault oso i cant expect much from u and u can just don reply me the same way.. A High rise ppl like u wont actually care a worm like me... An angel shall nvr care of a suffering devil... u broken my heart into even fine than the sand particles and u left it unmended.. God! tell me, am i rite or i am wrong to the bottom?
on and this wat i get. I try to show my smile to u all but from my inner u know nothing of me.. My heart sank in the sea of my tears.I done so many work so tat i wont break my promises and my word.And all u can say is many ppl said so hence u will not believe me. oh hello... cant u see th
e difference? Yes i admit, i do have good feeling,did it make me untrustworthy? If it is so, tell me early.Don until i have make u my most rely fren and u just break me into pieces like u don know or don even care of me.! When u have something in u, i can feel it cuz i care of u! When i got something bad, i need to put a Skyhigh BAnner to get ur ATTENTION. The 
thing i hide from u doesnt mean i don wan share wit u, is i don wan put u in trouble worrying. I done so many thin gand u just don realised... hmmm all of this days, im just a nobody to u... Feeling unfair, u have ppl in need tat u care and can call u anytime anywhere, but me, even ur free, and u just don care how i feel.. To be fair.. i know is my fault oso i cant expect much from u and u can just don reply me the same way.. A High rise ppl like u wont actually care a worm like me... An angel shall nvr care of a suffering devil... u broken my heart into even fine than the sand particles and u left it unmended.. God! tell me, am i rite or i am wrong to the bottom?My heart going wrong
Easter sunday~should be rejoiceful.. yet im not.. I was broken to the ground after the church.. Im all Alone at home.. wishing somebody could be with me.. BUt i was not accompanied. Even in maple.. Somebody brought up back some sad memories back to me.. i cant take it.. Mean while.. i was keep missing Angel..but she was like so busy and dono wat she busying wit wat.. wish i could know.. i cant stop thinking of tat.. My heart just so crowded with her.. MY mind cant be closed down .. I cant rest my self.. The feeelin gtat i don wan has strike me again~ i really wish tat dracular will take back his own path old way.. To put full love in angel... But dracular was so scared.. hmm i think was because heart broke down too much making dracular heartless..
Maple~
Hope myself get addicted to maple again.No pain,no sad,no hate with a day go on lifelessly. But it better than ppl hurting me ,tat feling is really pain like a knife penetrate through it. But now in maple i getting some pain oso.Spm,Guitar,problems,scout,prefect i just cant take it... why i cant just like jessbunny lifelessly pass her day with a cheerful smile. Why no body wanna believe me,when i treat ppl nice,but end up i get a position at the back of their heart or nvr even rmb im present b4 in theri road..
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