I hardly understand why i always love mid and end of the year.
May be I always had a bad time at the starting year. Messed.
Looking back on my history of post. I found out most of emo post are all posted at the beginning of the year.
Gosh... If you asking me am I happy now? I think so? Man I hate this feeling when it strike me.
Sense of failure
Showing posts with label Emo. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Emo. Show all posts
FFK
Being ffk'ed was a good feeling be with for the day. And guess what, I been ffk'ed quite a lot. Feeling like I wasn't at least in the prior schedule to remember about. Just like today, my lunch and breakfast had to eat alone. And wasn't suppose to be like this. Wake up early in the morning sux to the bottom.
Being ignored, i don't think i need to express more. Because is just as same as being ffk.
FFK= Fong Fei Kei ( direct translation from Cantonese is throwing aeroplane)
In english term is set pigeon
Being ignored, i don't think i need to express more. Because is just as same as being ffk.
I wonder why people always think is ok to ffk and ignore people.
A: Why you just don't change?
B: Is Ok what, other also ignore/ffk.
Just because u been ffked or ignored, do not mean u should do so.
IS aff K hurting! In another way you should try the best to keep your word.
FFK= Fong Fei Kei ( direct translation from Cantonese is throwing aeroplane)
In english term is set pigeon
Sorrows
Im sad
Im lonely
Im ignored
If some one would try to understand
If some one tried to care
You want cared
You want understanding
You want me give everything best for you
You want me keep my words
You want me not to ignore you
You want me fill the space of hole in your heart
How bout me?
who would do all those to me?
I don't feeled cared,
neither is understanding or tolerance
I don't get anything, keeping words? *you gonna say:Don't be an idiot
This space was left open ever since a long time
Im lonely
Im ignored
If some one would try to understand
If some one tried to care
You want cared
You want understanding
You want me give everything best for you
You want me keep my words
You want me not to ignore you
You want me fill the space of hole in your heart
How bout me?
who would do all those to me?
I don't feeled cared,
neither is understanding or tolerance
I don't get anything, keeping words? *you gonna say:Don't be an idiot
This space was left open ever since a long time
Something fading
I been wondering did something fading within me...
For all the time passed, just mere few hours of loneliness.
I found out, i start to give up.
I give up because I kept told my self no point waiting.
I wanna confess once again but my fear dragging me.
Really hurt when I typing this. I wish anything would come and encourage me.
Is far beyond my reach. I'm tired catching it. My engine start choking. The urge the need the strength that keep me going on everything is slipped out slowly.
This is week 3 already, none of my list find me. none came and say hello. None came. No nudge,no msg. Nothing.
For all the time passed, just mere few hours of loneliness.
I found out, i start to give up.
I give up because I kept told my self no point waiting.
I wanna confess once again but my fear dragging me.
Really hurt when I typing this. I wish anything would come and encourage me.
Is far beyond my reach. I'm tired catching it. My engine start choking. The urge the need the strength that keep me going on everything is slipped out slowly.
This is week 3 already, none of my list find me. none came and say hello. None came. No nudge,no msg. Nothing.
Silent day No.2
Durian for lunch, tried it before?
Doubt you even dare to do it... Well, its kinda a great idea when u dont know what to eat during lunch hour.
Or you had too many option for lunch and struggling what special to eat for the day.
Its real nice though but you got to drink lot cool water after that.
For me i just get few " tortoise pudding" after that ^^
Doubt you even dare to do it... Well, its kinda a great idea when u dont know what to eat during lunch hour.
Or you had too many option for lunch and struggling what special to eat for the day.
Its real nice though but you got to drink lot cool water after that.For me i just get few " tortoise pudding" after that ^^
Well, Its 2nd day of real silence.
Msn had switched on for 24 hours,
64 people on9, but no one chat with me.
Msn had switched on for 24 hours,
64 people on9, but no one chat with me.
When Extreme Positive and Extreme Negative MEET
I been trying to be the most positive side i could be during these days and weeks.
Never want to try to sulk for a sec ..
I could said i really had trusted God to take care my mum,
To be with her to endure through the pain now.
I wanted to cheer her every moment from now and then.
I DO care of her, IM concern of her and my worries cant be doubt,
but still i know this is not on my hand to worry.
But, my mum on the other hand.
She been doing everything opposite to mine.
Im said in had no concern nor worry on her.
Whether she dead or not will not enter my head.
Gosh,
The word, her expression torn my heart.
It is far pain than broke up with my love one.
I got out of my house and cycle to the clock tower,
I cried, i shout. The hurt within is stil there.
What more i can do....
Im useless,
i wish im a nutritionist,
OR a doctor,
Better if a surgeon.
Of most is best i had a healing hand.
But.....
Never want to try to sulk for a sec ..
I could said i really had trusted God to take care my mum,
To be with her to endure through the pain now.
I wanted to cheer her every moment from now and then.
I DO care of her, IM concern of her and my worries cant be doubt,
but still i know this is not on my hand to worry.
But, my mum on the other hand.
She been doing everything opposite to mine.
Im said in had no concern nor worry on her.
Whether she dead or not will not enter my head.
Gosh,
The word, her expression torn my heart.
It is far pain than broke up with my love one.
I got out of my house and cycle to the clock tower,
I cried, i shout. The hurt within is stil there.
What more i can do....
Im useless,
i wish im a nutritionist,
OR a doctor,
Better if a surgeon.
Of most is best i had a healing hand.
But.....
Anyway, thank to my angel's msg.
She had at least calmed the roaring sea in me
She had at least calmed the roaring sea in me
S,S,S
Sick~ Sad ~ Sigh~
Wasn't in any good mood today.
Knowing Final is just next day and i had fallen sick.
Headache,sore throat, cough and flu too!!!!
Think it is just merely caught heaty, who knew I caught cold AlSO!!!!.
Man this is real bad for me, can't focus when i revise.
All i can depend on is what i had remember during the time I managed not to distract in class.
Wished Angel would had responded more to me but~ sigh.....
This real envy me when i saw a guy outside my house propose to the rich man' daughter opposite of my house with fire work. I wished i could do that T.T
MAN THIS IS DISTRACTING!!!!!
Urgh~ Felt like finding her when i couldn't sleep.
But i nvr wan to bug her... sigh....
SAT PAI sia~
Knowing Final is just next day and i had fallen sick.
Headache,sore throat, cough and flu too!!!!
Think it is just merely caught heaty, who knew I caught cold AlSO!!!!.
Man this is real bad for me, can't focus when i revise.
All i can depend on is what i had remember during the time I managed not to distract in class.
Wished Angel would had responded more to me but~ sigh.....
This real envy me when i saw a guy outside my house propose to the rich man' daughter opposite of my house with fire work. I wished i could do that T.T
MAN THIS IS DISTRACTING!!!!!
Urgh~ Felt like finding her when i couldn't sleep.
But i nvr wan to bug her... sigh....
SAT PAI sia~
Same VAlentine
It been more than 3years i had been celebrating This valentine not with girl friend nor even friend.
Yeap, as usual plan will gonna be sake sushi to spend time with my mom.
But this time is lil diff, she will be going for an heart valve surgery.
The risk, i really don't wan to mention.
But Im fasting and praying,
That Lord will take most of the pain away, and left a lil for her to bare.
She always wanted to see the one i mention as angel.
I do want to invite her, but i think she gonna be busy for my request.
Anyway, Please pray for my mum T.T
Yeap, as usual plan will gonna be sake sushi to spend time with my mom.
But this time is lil diff, she will be going for an heart valve surgery.
The risk, i really don't wan to mention.
But Im fasting and praying,
That Lord will take most of the pain away, and left a lil for her to bare.
She always wanted to see the one i mention as angel.
I do want to invite her, but i think she gonna be busy for my request.
Anyway, Please pray for my mum T.T
This Pierced Thru my <3
All this while i thought Im really what you said I am.
All this while I trusted what you told me about yourself.
I hold on what you had put this belief in my mind.
I insist your right all this time without further questioning.
But when i fight hard to tell myself my prediction wasn't acute.
But when I see what you had done on the very day.
You broken me ,not physically but mentally and spiritually.
You had lied to me with your speech, but the word from your blog had betrayed you.
How am I got to do, I already have less believe toward other. Now, I don't know how to trust anymore.
All this while I trusted what you told me about yourself.
I hold on what you had put this belief in my mind.
I insist your right all this time without further questioning.
But when i fight hard to tell myself my prediction wasn't acute.
But when I see what you had done on the very day.
You broken me ,not physically but mentally and spiritually.
You had lied to me with your speech, but the word from your blog had betrayed you.
How am I got to do, I already have less believe toward other. Now, I don't know how to trust anymore.
Violet
Hurt
When will you start to think of me?
When will you start to tell more of you?
Am i that insignificant to you?
When u start to care?
Ever since you changed your image.
You changed.
Though you had turn lil better but ur still mean.
When will you start to tell more of you?
Am i that insignificant to you?
When u start to care?
Ever since you changed your image.
You changed.
Though you had turn lil better but ur still mean.
You no longer care,
No longer share,
Or isit you don dare,
But now you are never there.
Or im just normal like faded hair.
No longer share,
Or isit you don dare,
But now you are never there.
Or im just normal like faded hair.
Hurt
Went for Exam this early morning..
Man is kind of tough struggling through it.
Then when to help in badminton training After that straight till 6pm..
Kinda tired wei when keep 1 vs 2.
Then After dinner last minute at 10pm call for badminton training till 2 am..
Man it was darn tired...
Man is kind of tough struggling through it.
Then when to help in badminton training After that straight till 6pm..
Kinda tired wei when keep 1 vs 2.
Then After dinner last minute at 10pm call for badminton training till 2 am..
Man it was darn tired...
But still something hurt me,
if she will care.
Nah
if she will care.
Nah
Im sensitive, im hurt. Im grateful, im happy.
Sorry to say Im deep in love.
For her will never know.
Sorry to say Im deep in love.
For her will never know.
Im too sensitive
Im waiting!
And Im hurt, Im sad,
not because i emo.
But what u had done.
Im waiting for ur response!
At least tell me that ur unavailable at the moment.
Don't make me wait like a fool.
Im broken ,hurted~
Had you ever cared?
If you had at least concern a lil bout me is enuff for everything.
I open the place for you cuz i onli know tat u can settle my wave.
But you had never even took it serious.
You never believe,
Still hiding somewhere there a slip,
Writing no matter what you made and done,
still i love you not fading but increasing.
And Im hurt, Im sad,
not because i emo.
But what u had done.
Im waiting for ur response!
At least tell me that ur unavailable at the moment.
Don't make me wait like a fool.
Im broken ,hurted~
Had you ever cared?
If you had at least concern a lil bout me is enuff for everything.
I open the place for you cuz i onli know tat u can settle my wave.
But you had never even took it serious.
You never believe,
Still hiding somewhere there a slip,
Writing no matter what you made and done,
still i love you not fading but increasing.
heart
Emo?
Busy?
Stressed?
I wish i can really be with you.
i wish u can open for me to share wit you.
But i never wish u would hide from me.
No matter what. I will always guard over you.
My love will nvr fade less but growing.
Even u like it or not.
Busy?
Stressed?
I wish i can really be with you.
i wish u can open for me to share wit you.
But i never wish u would hide from me.
No matter what. I will always guard over you.
My love will nvr fade less but growing.
Even u like it or not.
ignored
Drackie was emo~
And Drackie is sobbing~
Future tense , Drackie thinks he will be same too.
Drackie missed Angel,
Drackie wanted to chat with Angel,
Drackie want Angel to share like how he had shared,
But Angel ignore Drackie.
And Drackie is sobbing~
Future tense , Drackie thinks he will be same too.
Drackie missed Angel,
Drackie wanted to chat with Angel,
Drackie want Angel to share like how he had shared,
But Angel ignore Drackie.
Sealed with broken heart,
Emo within
Nothing much wanted,
Just want any one who cared,
Not much Loved needed,
Just want someone who remembered.
Just a lil hope from Drackie,
Hope on Angel;
At least a rememberance.
Tho i cant confess but i will some day
Not sealed with anger but lil disappointed wit lot swept of sorrow.
Just want any one who cared,
Not much Loved needed,
Just want someone who remembered.
Just a lil hope from Drackie,
Hope on Angel;
At least a rememberance.
Tho i cant confess but i will some day
Not sealed with anger but lil disappointed wit lot swept of sorrow.
Pain within
Words that hidden away Heart that locked inside Truth that fade it stands Lone that exo'ing If she could open it I hope it'll be done
Missing u, i really do Cheer and chill, words i try to hold Wish will not be crashed again
Bored
Wishing She'll know it
Wishing She'll accept it
Wishing She never ignore it
Wishing if she could get it
A bored day yes it was, Nth special nth wrong nth better.
Having tough time forcing friend do homework
Having great time enjoying comic
Having lone time during break
Having sweet time missing her
Having pain time wondering
Having all sort of emo period over and over again
thinking
Wishing She'll accept it
Wishing She never ignore it
Wishing if she could get it
A bored day yes it was, Nth special nth wrong nth better.
Having tough time forcing friend do homework
Having great time enjoying comic
Having lone time during break
Having sweet time missing her
Having pain time wondering
Having all sort of emo period over and over again
thinking
Caught red Headed?
Simon was in a large class and fell asleep and started snoring. The teacher heard someone snoring and shouted , “Who is snoring ?”. Simon was suddenly woken up by the shout and replied ? “I don’t know sir, I was sleeping”
Crazy day~
Its a tired wake today~ Having a hot night due to a black out.
was so nice listening music when i lay on my sweet bed.Just shut, everything goes dark ,music stop! Oh no ,how can it be? To my fear,
darkness fall around my room.All i do was ray and waiting for electric back.
It a bright day today^^
Or should i said the sun shine so bright
and heat the surrounding making it super hot!!! oh well seem like it still not related to me. Cuz im sitting in an air conditioned room, Yes again it is super cold inside. When walk out is like from north pole walking into Egypt.
Again another bored working time where all my stuff was settle and nothing to do. Other was just some help out.
Out of sudden of my night i felt so wanted to see her on9 or sms me~
i just wanted it so must when i ended up just view her profile. Yeap nth change. She still look great as she was.
Well Again im emo again haiz~~~
any way~ that my 2nd day of week passsed
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