If some one would really think of me

When looking into the title,
Some might had this passed through you mind that u did think of me.
But will it be a time that u need help or u need an existence to deal with your worry.
Will you think of me when your bored? may be?
Will you think of me when you sad? Of course, but some time?
Will you think of me when your happy? Definitely not.

It been a long while i felt myself like a tool than a living creature.
May be worse than a tool.
No one would stretch their hand until my calling.

I do felt like i never even was existed for most of the time.
Im more like a dust when you hate it,
road sand that is not needed,
But a necessary when come in time of need.

Am I all the time a tool? Sand? Or just nothing at all?
A whole new year,
new weather behavior,
so do the new situation Im in.
I never really felt much happy,
I seek for care and concern,
Just lil love would be enough.
But not in anyone, neither here in my home.

Crushed,

If some one would missed me.
Would it happen?
Never in my life time.

Sadden Niu year
(T_T) ~